I was just thinking about blog design and how I’m hoping to devote lots of time in the near future to learning the ins and outs of Photoshop so I can try my hand at creating my own headers and backgrounds. Aand it occurred to me that my personal blog — It’s A Paine-FULL Life — still had a New Year’s theme design on it.
And then it occurred to me that I really hadn’t posted there since the holidays. Shame on me! (I know you can’t see my finger wagging but rest assured, it is.)
Sometimes I just get caught up in the busyness of life. And I drop the ball on the things that are really important to me, but still can’t seem to make it to the top of the priority list.
Like blogging.
Not that excuses make any difference at all, but I’ve been attending a training program full time for the past 8 weeks. I decided I needed to take a different direction where work is concerned (a long story that I’ll share some time) and this program seemed like a good choice. And it was. Is. But it’s also exhausting.
It’s not just going to the lab and working 40 hours a week, it’s also the changes in physical and mental energy that are involved. I totally switched gears. I went from one line of work to something completely different. And because it’s such a big change, it’s requiring a whole lot more brain power than I’m used to in order to do something that I’m still somewhat unfamiliar with.
And I’m on my feet all day. That’s tiring too. The end result is I’m coming home exhausted every night, feeling drained and without the energy I need to take care of the house, my family, and ME. Things I really would like to do — like blogging, learning Photoshop, and reading the stacks of books I have piled all over the house — just fall to the wayside.
I want my life back!
Well, to be more precise. I want more energy. I want to be able to do it all. I want to find time to exercise and have some fun. I want my house to be clean and orderly (not that it ever was before, but I still want it!) and I want to have time to spend with my friends and family — all without feeling guilty.
Once I finish this program I’ll be unemployed. And while I’ll be job-hunting (along with thousands of other Americans!) I have to admit I’m looking forward to some down time. Time that I can maybe get my life in order. Time to get myself into a routine that is somewhat balanced, for lack of a better word.
When life gets a little crazy and I feel like there are just too many “dos” and not enough “dones” on my list, it helps to look ahead and know there will be a chance to take a breath. I’m excited that my next breath is only a few weeks away. It can’t get here quickly enough as far as I’m concerned.
Look for more posts in the future. I’m planning to devote my evenings this week to studying for my last exam and then next week to just being lazy. Then hopefully, I’ll feel refreshed and ready to go come March 16th when I have some days to myself. The “to do” list is long with projects that have been put on the back burner for WAY too long and I’m hoping to be unemployed just long enough to get to them all!
